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• I've been busy lately. Getting things ready for a Christmas Open House for the Jewelry Designer I work for. Trying to work on an online newsletter I do for another local business. Babysitting once a week. Trying to get my Christmas cards out...so far I've completed 20 out of 60 and it only took me a week. Finishing my Christmas decorating...yep, still not done. Then there is my poor son, who thankfully plays well by himself because I've been going bonkers. The other night I let all the things I have to do go and just sat and played with my baby. It was relaxing and nice. Then he dropped a jug of water on my cheekbone and I started to cry and went to bed at 6:45pm. hahaha!
• I said to Andy last night, 'I need to get have this baby so I can get back to myself'. Guys, my hormones...INSANITY. I am jolly ole Mo one second and swearing at the dog the next. Yes, swearing. Bad things I know. I just seriously need a pill or something. I have no control. I'm a loose cannon. Let's continue with more examples. I'm motivated, doing a million things at once...and the next minute I'm crying because my Christmas lights aren't working so I sit for an hour and cry. Then get mad at Colt because he's laughing at me and does he realllly have a heart? HIS MOTHER IS CRYING! I apologize to Andy every night before bed and ask him if he still loves me. So far he still does.
• Copper 'started'. Remember her fancy panties? Well the doggie period is a bit more interesting with a toddler running around. I already hate hate HATE when dogs lick my son and you can imagine my fear for her licking him now. I seriously just wish I could give her away until she was done with her period and get her back 3 weeks later. Yes it takes 3 weeks, sometimes 4. This anxiety has not helped my up and down behavior. Thankfully though, Colt hasn't tried to take off her fancy panties or even touch them really. I barked at him big time the first time he tried and he's been listening to me! Yay. AND when Copper is always really tired and lethargic around this time so that has also helped. She sleeps a lot. Enough of this...please...someone should have stopped me after I mentioned the 'fancy panties'.
• Speaking of Colt listening to me...he is starting to obey! This is a slow, slow process but more times then not he listens. Although his new thing is to stick his fingers down his throat which has led to a few puking incidents...one incident being all over my WHITE wool coat. Ya can't have it all people...No you can't.

I seriously sound like the most depressing person ever. It just seems like that...there is a lot of good/happy things going on too. Well, off I go to church. Gonna go get my worship on. Which by the way, I bawl at every song they play. Silent Night? bawling. Joy to the world? bawling. It's what I do.